Fyodor Dostoevsky

the letter?"

"Do you know what?" suddenly I cried as I fixed Mr. Astley

with my gaze. "I believe that you have already heard the story

from some one--very possibly from Mlle. Polina herself?"

In return he gave me an astonished stare.

"Your eyes look very fiery," he said with a return of his

former calm, "and in them I can read suspicion. Now, you have

no right whatever to be suspicious. It is not a right which I

can for a moment recognise, and I absolutely refuse to answer

your questions."

"Enough! You need say no more," I cried with a strange emotion

at my heart, yet not altogether understanding what had aroused

that emotion in my breast. Indeed, when, where, and how could

Polina have chosen Astley to be one of her confidants? Of late I

had come rather to overlook him in this connection, even though

Polina had always been a riddle to me--so much so that now, when

I had just permitted myself to tell my friend of my infatuation

in all its aspects, I had found myself struck, during the very

telling, with the fact that in my relations with her I could

specify nothing that was explicit, nothing that was positive. On

the contrary, my relations had been purely fantastic, strange,

and unreal; they had been unlike anything else that I could

think of.

"Very well, very well," I replied with a warmth equal to

Astley's own. "Then I stand confounded, and have no further

opinions to offer. But you are a good fellow, and I am glad to

know what you think about it all, even though I do not need your

advice."

Then, after a pause, I resumed:

"For instance, what reason should you assign for the General

taking fright in this way? Why should my stupid clowning have

led the world to elevate it into a serious incident? Even De

Griers has found it necessary to put in his oar (and he only

interferes on the most important occasions), and to visit me,

and to address to me the most earnest supplications. Yes, HE, De

Griers, has actually been playing the suppliant to ME! And, mark

you, although he came to me as early as nine o'clock, he had

ready-prepared in his hand Mlle. Polina's note. When, I would

ask, was that note written? Mlle. Polina must have been aroused

from sleep for the express purpose of writing it. At all events

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