Fyodor Dostoevsky

positive as twice two makes four, and such positiveness is not life,

gentlemen, but is the beginning of death. Anyway, man has always been

afraid of this mathematical certainty, and I am afraid of it now. Granted

that man does nothing but seek that mathematical certainty, he traverses

oceans, sacrifices his life in the quest, but to succeed, really to find it,

dreads, I assure you. He feels that when he has found it there will be

nothing for him to look for. When workmen have finished their work

they do at least receive their pay, they go to the tavern, then they are taken

to the police-station--and there is occupation for a week. But where can

man go? Anyway, one can observe a certain awkwardness about him

when he has attained such objects. He loves the process of attaining, but

does not quite like to have attained, and that, of course, is very absurd. In

fact, man is a comical creature; there seems to be a kind of jest in it all.

But yet mathematical certainty is after all, something insufferable. Twice

two makes four seems to me simply a piece of insolence. Twice two

makes four is a pert coxcomb who stands with arms akimbo barring your

path and spitting. I admit that twice two makes four is an excellent thing,

but if we are to give everything its due, twice two makes five is sometimes

a very charming thing too.

And why are you so firmly, so triumphantly, convinced that only the

normal and the positive--in other words, only what is conducive to

welfare--is for the advantage of man? Is not reason in error as regards

advantage? Does not man, perhaps, love something besides well-being?

Perhaps he is just as fond of suffering? Perhaps suffering is just as great a

benefit to him as well-being? Man is sometimes extraordinarily, passionately,

in love with suffering, and that is a fact. There is no need to appeal

to universal history to prove that; only ask yourself, if you are a man and

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