Fyodor Dostoevsky

headlong downstairs. "This is very different from the Pope's leaving Rome

and going to Brazil, very different from the ball on Lake Como!"

"You are a scoundrel," a thought flashed through my mind, "if you

laugh at this now."

"No matter!" I cried, answering myself. "Now everything is lost!"

There was no trace to be seen of them, but that made no difference--I

knew where they had gone.

At the steps was standing a solitary night sledge-driver in a rough

peasant coat, powdered over with the still falling, wet, and as it were

warm, snow. It was hot and steamy. The little shaggy piebald horse was

also covered with snow and coughing, I remember that very well. I made

a rush for the roughly made sledge; but as soon as I raised my foot to get

into it, the recollection of how Simonov had just given me six roubles

seemed to double me up and I tumbled into the sledge like a sack.

"No, I must do a great deal to make up for all that," I cried. "But I will

make up for it or perish on the spot this very night. Start!"

We set off. There was a perfect whirl in my head.

"They won't go down on their knees to beg for my friendship. That is a

mirage, cheap mirage, revolting, romantic and fantastical--that's another

ball on Lake Como. And so I am bound to slap Zverkov's face! It is

my duty to. And so it is settled; I am flying to give him a slap in the face.

Hurry up!"

The driver tugged at the reins.

"As soon as I go in I'll give it him. Ought I before giving him the slap

to say a few words by way of preface? No. I'll simply go in and give it him.

They will all be sitting in the drawing-room, and he with Olympia on the

sofa. That damned Olympia! She laughed at my looks on one occasion

and refused me. I'll pull Olympia's hair, pull Zverkov's ears! No, better

one ear, and pull him by it round the room. Maybe they will all begin

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